My brain while racing ( Swimming )
15mins before racing — keeps slapping myself
People see me like:
Getting ready — I am okay, its fine I will try my best, I will get medal
Heat before me finishes — Its fine don’t worry
Gets on the block — Oop hope I do not get disqualified
0.00 sec — Ok ok don’t panic
0.05 sec — Wait did I just false start?
0.20 sec — Nvm we’re good
First underwater kick — Feels like world olympian
First 25 m — Feeling fine
Flip turn — nailed it (maybe?)
Last 25m — I am speed. I am pain. I am emotional damaged
Midway — wait a minute… I think I might drown
Last 5 m — IS THAT WALL OR A MIRAGE
Finish — coughs up entire lung;looks at the screen then gets a PB +60 sec
Coach: — “How did that feel?”
Me: — “Fine” (internally screaming)
Results — Turns out that I was 19th
AND INDEED I DID NOT GET A MEDAL TODAY SADLY
VERY UNHAPPY DEPRESSED DAY
TᕼE Eᑎᗪ
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